I Can’t Do This!

Romans 8:26 “In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us through wordless groans.”

As Eric and I have been working towards learning God’s love, this phrase, “I can’t do this,“ has come up many times. Have you ever said that? Sometimes it’s over big things, sometimes over small things. Sometimes it’s said when small things seem big at the time. Do you know what I mean?

That’s the absolute best place to be. If WE can’t do something then we are finally out of God’s way so He can do “His thing:” Bring peace, clarity and love. We stop trying to run our own lives with our own strength, abilities, strategy, wit and whatever other selfish tools we think we have that are better than what God has it in His toolbox.

I laugh when I stop and evaluate my reality: I am a mere apprentice to the Master Craftsman who made heaven and earth. Is it possible for me to carve the perfect “project,” we call life, when I’m just being introduced to what tools I have at my fingertips?

The tools seem heavy and awkward. I whittle away, scraping at the wood but for all of my efforts, a shapeless form sits on my workbench. I sigh and am irritated. The harder I work, the more tired and frustrated I become.

Finally, when I throw up my hands and yell (I’m reeeeally over myself at this point), ”I CAN’T DO THIS!” The Master appears by my side. Sometimes He has a new tool to teach me, other times He takes the tool I have in my hand and teaches me how to use it properly, effectively, and often the surrendered results are immediate.

One thing I have noticed on a consistent basis is that in order to gain fine detail, the Master often has to cut very deep. This removes areas I thought were necessary and important. Since He is the Master, I hold my breath, bite my lip, watch and learn. I have to trust because if I stop him as He is plunging that tool into that misshapen form, beauty will not emerge. The form will be muddled, ugly, and wounded. I have to let him finish what He starts and trust it’s going to be perfect in the end. I know it will be.

Our next step towards love was and is the confession that we have no idea what we are doing. We agree that the only way to the masterpiece our Heavenly Father(Jesus) has in mind for us, is close and constant communication with Him. The problem is, with this relationship thing, it’s a fresh block of wood! We’re supposed to be creating a masterpiece together. The Master has given us the picture of the end result but we both have started carving in different areas. We have gouged and maimed the piece and tried to tell each other how they other should be holding their tool.

I am ashamed when I think of the Master waiting in the shadows watching this display. The entire time He was whispering, “Just ask… Just ask me. I have the answer.” Tears trickled down His face as His children were placing their egos and self-centeredness, not only before each other, but more pointedly, Him. We dishonored our Father.

Long story short – – too late, we raised our hands and said,”We can’t do this!”


Guess who showed up?

What do you do when the Master of all is standing by your side and you’re looking at the mess you created together? How do you even know what the first question should be? Where do we even start? Thankfully, we didn’t wait long.

Romans 8:26 “In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us through wordless groans.”

Heartfelt supports the Dani Johnson training and allows opportunities to dig in together, along with our spouses. Dani shares what she has learned FROM FAILING. It’s hard not to listen when she still has to deal with the natural consequences from mistakes made a quarter of a century ago.

What she learned living through that(a failed suicide attempt) was who God is. He has the answers to all of the messes we create. She also reminds us that we can’t fix or preach at anyone else. The only person we have the power to work on is ourselves. When we put Jesus as King of kings and Lord of lords back on His throne and we get off, He will double, triple, ultimately multiply whatever pathetic effort we have put it.

With that being said, literally, this is day 2 of us hitting the Restart button and returning Him to the throne of our lives. Don’t get me wrong, the really rough patches, thankfully, were a long time ago and He has healed and restored 10 times over where we were. But we both know this life could be a whole heck of a lot better! The best is yet to come 🙂

Welcome to our journey. Until next time: blessings!

Author: Tracy Cook

Widowed one week before our 27th wedding anniversary, Heavenly Dad continues to carry me, now blessing me with a second chance for love.

One thought on “I Can’t Do This!”

  1. Tracy-you’ve been on my heart and mind the last two weeks. I was finishing up a Bible Study with Max Lucado-Because of Bethlehem-he was talking about Worship, specifically “Worship demonstrably-let your body express what your heart is feeling; and let your heart be awakened by your body.” This reminded me of our last fall crop and you shared with us that sometimes it makes Others uncomfortable when you’re out walking and you worship demonstrably; and I remember thinking-I want to be like that! Instead of sitting quietly by and saying “thank you God! Or, Praise you Holy Father!” or whatever praise phrase comes to mind to myself, I want to say it out loud!!
    Since September, work has been crazy busy and I find myself overwhelmed, frustrated and feeling defeated. I already had one project to track and then thanks to a storm, I had a second and while we’re doing #2, let’s just start #3! And then there is year-end!! AAAHHH!!!
    I too found myself crying out “GOD, I CAN’T DO THIS!! I’M TOO OLD. PLEASE HELP ME!!” I take a breath and before long, I find myself saying “THANK YOU GOD!! YOU ARE SOOOO GOOD TO ME!!” and my heart overflows with joy at that moment. Something powerful happens when we worship out loud.
    So, thank you my friend!! Thank you for sharing your sweet, beautiful heart with us!!!
    Blessings!!

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