“For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord” (Romans 8:38-39).
Let me get this straight, this sounds like the only thing that can separate me from the love of Heavenly Dad is…me?
Confession: I’ve been very confused lately. What’s new, right? Everyday I have choices to make, some little like: what to do next on my long list at work, others difficult but no brainers: responding with love, in an appropriate tone of voice, when someone is spewing their negativity on me. Some are hard: there is something about myself I despise and what are the steps(at least a first one!) I need to do to change it? Then there’s my sore spot: What direction in life am I supposed to be going?
There are small opportunities/decisions to be made that come up that I know if I choose, there’s no going back. If I move forward and things don’t work out, relationships with people, my finances, or my self confidence/worth will be forever altered-there is risk involved.
This is the quandary: how do I know how and when to move forward when the tough, I mean REALLY tough decisions/opportunities arise?
What Heavenly Dad has been working on with me is where my hope lies. If I hope that the situation goes through as I have it planned in my head (like that really happens), all hope is lost. If I hope that the crash and burn at the end of my decision will be something I am able to live with, I am setting myself up for dispare. If I stay close to Heavenly Dad, talk frequently to Him, check His guide book often and make sure my plans are in alignment, have an undeniable peace (though weird) THEN I know “He’s got this,” and I have hope and confidence that He is going to work out everything for my best (even if it’s painful, sometimes).
The bottom line, this lesson He is trying to get through my thick skull is: He is always there. He has provided me a guide book to help me with choices, big or small, but it’s my choice to pick it up. If I follow His lead, the road may not be the smoothest but the view from the passenger seat(with HIM DRIVING) is going to be freaking awesome and I will be the most satisfied, fulfilled and content upon reaching my final destination. The amazing thing is, He is going to love me even if/when I screw up (can’t be separated from Him!!!).
This is a lot to take on for me so I’m taking it one day at a time, letting Him lead and trying not to think too much about the next step. He leads, I’ll follow.
Until next time: Blessings!