Never Stuck

Nevertheless, each person should live as a believer in whatever situation the Lord has assigned to them, just as God has called them. This is the rule that I lay down in all the churches. 1 Corinthians 7:17

Does that mean I’m stuck exactly where I am ??? I think NOT!

I sorta feel like I have been spinning my wheels for the last 21 months. It’s not like widowhood is going to change, Archie cannot climb down a golden ladder and come back, nor would he if he could: “Tracy (Taylor and all of this world’s crap) or heaven?” No brainer: Heaven, hands down. With that being said, I have not had set goals or established things I dream of doing. “I still have 20 years left on the last set of dreams, why make more?” Right?

Last week work sent me to San Antonio, TX for additional training. This was the same sort of training that Archie and I went to a mere two years ago and he was chomping at the bit to change our lives and the world! I really appreciated his enthusiasm, but that is also when his backache had really started to set in so his enthusiam was squelched with pain in less than a month. He went home one and a half months following.

So much has happened between then and now it was like going to the training for the very first time! If you followed me right after Archie went home I mentioned  Dani Johnson and her challenge,”What would you do if you could not fail?” If the need for money was off the table, what would you do? What would you love to bounce out of bed in the morning and say,”I get to _________?!?!!?”

I don’t remember what I wrote the last time, but now my dream is not about growing old with my best friend and helping him become who heavenly Dad intended HIM to be, it’s all about what heavenly Dad has for ME! WHAT??? That seems so…selfish. She kept talking and I shut my mind thinking,”This is ridicuous! Been here, done that. It didn’t work the last time because, obviously God had other plans, so why even dream? If my dream doesn’t match up with His, I will just be miserable and disappointed. Forget it. I’m not writing anything down.” So I sat.

She kept talking (speakers tend to do that) and my mind began wondering,”…if I didn’t need money…”. What would be your driving force? I talk to a lot to retired people who are busier now that they are retired than while they were working. What would I do if I were them…but at my age now?

I wrote down my answer in the middle of the page and stared at it. “Why the heck would I want to do that?” I put a slash and wrote,”equip/prepare/love/encourage/empower/share/reflect God’s love…” and on I wrote.

Then she had us write down goals, at least ten. “If I stay in the ‘dream world,’ I could probably come up with ten things I would LOVE to do,” so ten things, some that surprised me, went down on the paper.  Then she said put a number beside them of how many years it will take to achieve those goals!!! Whoa, whoa, whoa! Now, that was my “dream world” goals. I cannot actually accomplish them. I mean, I didn’t write anything like,”grow a unicorn horn” or any thing, but seriously? One was travel internationally. How the heck could I ever do that? Hello! Widow! Lack of income…wait…”money were no object, and put IN the AMAZING Heavenly Dad element…what if it is HIS will…?”

Beside me at this conference was Liz. Not only is she an amazing designer, but does the majority of our media in the UK. When she saw my goal she said,”This year, Tracy, this year!” Wow…I don’t know. With Liz’s proding, I wrote a “1.” Some of my goals were not nearly as “out there” as that one, and some were to the moon, in comparison.

Dani went on to say,”What is ONE thing you could do today towards that goal? JUST ONE tiny thing? What’s one tiny thing you could do tomorrow? The bigget challenge isn’t the tiny things, it’s the thinking that tiny things aren’t enough and squashing the dreams just as they are getting started. One thing, one day at a time, plant the seed, look for the sprout, then PROTECT that sprout!”

How you might ask? Accountablity. Tell somebody your dreams. Check in with them on your sprouts. Encourage them, they encourage you.

So now I have to ask,”What would you do if money were no object and you COULD NOT FAIL?” What’s one tiny step you could do to move toward that dream? When are you going to start?

As for me? I set my alarm. Liz and I are chatting every Thursday about our sprouts. It’s another step forward.

Until next time: Blessings!



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