Peace. Yesterday we were talking about travel, dream vacations, and stepping away from reality. Sometimes the world seems so chaotic it’s almost like we need to take a break from real life to find tranquility. The only problem is all the confusion and turmoil is waiting for you when you get home. Hmph.
People often said,”You need to take a vacation and get away,” after Arch went home. It’s the having to go back home to feelings I had not dealt with that held me back. When I go I want the freedom to come home and implement some of the experiences into everyday life. I cannot do that if I do not start with a spirit of peace and healing. Otherwise, I keep focusing on how heavy my baggage is, my back is getting sore, my feet are swelling, it’s hot, blah, blah, blah. Not really, but if I’m weighed down, it’s hard to look up. Does that make sense?
I told you this week has been a crazy awesome busyness at work. On top, there was Grief Share and Taylor’s confusion and feelings of being violated with her place of employment being robbed. Those don’t allow for much focus on restfulness, quiet, and calm.
As if that was not interesting enough, at the end of the day we had a guest show up at work. My office buddy, Kathy and I were on the way out the door, so we said our farewells and headed out. I actually got into the truck, closing the door, when the guest appeared directly in front of me, waiving me down.
I stepped out and tried to make eye contact, but the sun was in my eyes. I tried turning, but then the sun was in their eyes, so I turned again. It’s safe to say, grinning, we found a happy medium.
After Archie died, if you remember, one of the most difficult parts of my journey was feeling like people would not want me praying for them because God did not answer my prayers about Archie. I struggled. I spoke to God so often, but feared “looks” or judgment from others. That’s the sad thing. Those fears were based on feelings, not facts.
The guest tearfully shared with me what was going on in their life. From all outward appearance, they have it all. Let’s face it, we all only show the world “our good stuff.” Nobody needs to see or hear our whoas, right? Wrong.
I have no answers or advice. I don’t have a life that most would want. The one thing I do have is an amazing Heavenly Dad who listens when I’m happy, mad, sad, goofy, energetic, or lethargic. I grabbed them and just started praying. He has the answer. He can change and mend hearts. Ultimately, He brings peace…to me as well. You see, the one thing I’ve learned is: I’ve got a lot to learn. Life is full of questions to which I have no answers. Everyday could be depressing, but it’s not. I find peace when I am with my Heavenly Dad. I can be myself. I can talk, yell, sing or whisper and He hears. When my burdens are heavy He may not remove the load, but He steady’s my legs and asks me to lean on Him.
There is my peace. I am never alone.
John 16:33 “These things I have spoken to you, that in Me you may have peace. In the world you will have tribulation; but be of good cheer, I have overcome the world.”
Your turn! Please comment: Where do YOU find peace? Is it a place, an activity, or maybe a song? Sharing will encourage us all.
Have an amazing weekend and fill it with precious memories!
See you on Monday! Blessings