“While we wait for the blessed hope—the appearing of the glory of our great God and Savior, Jesus Christ,” Titus 2:13
One of my biggest struggles is waiting to go “home” with hope. How do you do that when you are unsure what there is to hope for, except the “forever” of heaven? Everything else is just chaff in the wind, here today, gone tomorrow.
On our way home from our whirlwind weekend Christmas trip, Taylor and I paused to listen to Dr. David Jeremiah on the radio. David Jeremiah was one of Archie’s favorite speakers and Arch also had a couple of his books. As the Dr. began to speak, I realized he was being used as my heavenly Dad’s voice I needed so desperately needed to hear.
I have had two questions I have been invisibly carrying since the moment my life changed, 1:50 pm, February 12, 2016, when the EMT’s declared Archie had gone home: “What do I do next?” “How do I live while I wait?”
I do not know what the topic Dr. Jeremiah had labeled his speech, but this is what my heavenly Dad talked to me about through his words:
“How do I live while I wait for ‘Home’?”
Look for the good in the world around me and tell everyone with whom I have the opportunity: “You are amazing, doing great, gifted, special, will get through this…were placed here on this earth for a reason…,” and remember that I was too. I need to be an encourager.
For myself, I need to personally look for models that have navigated this hurricane I am currently in the midst. Their storm may be different than mine, but some of the techniques used for steering can be emulated. I need to position myself closely, pay attention and ask questions when I don’t understand. Allow myself to fail, but make the necessary corrections to stay the course, destination: Healing.
As for the question, “What do I do next?” I am doing it. Everyday I choose to get out of bed, go, and do, preparing for the return of my heavenly Dad, or me going home, until I reach the “Hope” that is mentioned in the New Testament. As described by David Jeremiah: that hope is: “Something that will definitely happen at an unspecified time,” aka, Christ’s return.
I was driving to work and I was contemplating the “talk” my heavenly Dad was having with me yesterday. It’s not just because I am dealing with grief that I have these two questions, it’s because I am human.
Long before Archie went home I had feelings of “why am I here?” I went to work, home, did parenting, wife and church responsibilities, went to bed, got up and repeated. Everyday I wondered,”Is this what everyone’s life is like? Is this the way everyone feels?”
Dr. Jeremiah said something very interesting. He said we often live life then match our doctrine to whatever we are doing. That is opposite of what the Book of Instructions says to do: Read, live Biblical doctrine out to the fullest, sleep, repeat.
He was right. I did find myself thinking through a situation, then finding Bible verses that matched my train of thought. Wow, did I have that backwards. It’s like I was always looking for the pat on the back after I had run the race I had chosen, without even checking with my coach for the address of the event in which I was supposed to be participating!!! Duh.
Seek Dad’s instructions first. Got it.
Until tomorrow: Blessings!