“For I am not ashamed of the gospel, because it is the power of God that brings salvation to everyone who believes: first to the Jew, then to the Gentile” (Romans 1:16).
But what if I am so ashamed of myself I don’t want to tell anyone for fear they will judge my heavenly Dad…by looking at me?
In my time with my heavenly Dad he was reminding me of how I shouldn’t/can’t be ashamed of who He is. My mental meandering to His “talk” was,”but, Dad, people don’t want my life. They don’t want to loose their husbands and you know how much I am struggling with my uglies right now,” I argue, “You don’t really want to be associate with me…do you?” “I know you love me and everything, but, seriously, I don’t mind standing in the shadows. I can come out later…when my uglies are more under control and my life doesn’t look so messy. THEN people will see You. I don’t want to mess up your chance of increasing your family…just because of me.”
Ok, so Dad then reminded me of someone who He sent his son to meet:
“Jesus said to her, ‘Everyone who drinks of this water will be thirsty again, but whoever drinks of the water that I will give him will never be thirsty again. The water that I will give him will become in him a spring of water welling up to eternal life.’ The woman said to him, ‘Sir, give me this water, so that I will not be thirsty or have to come here to draw water.’” John 4:13-15 (ESV)
This chick had been married 5 times and was living with a married dude. Seriously? I guess everyone has their own version of uglies to deal with but heavenly Dad scheduled a special meeting just to offer her eternal life. What the heck?
First He had to love her enough to know her schedule, then He he didn’t care if His son was seen speaking to her (a throw away to society), then want to spend eternity with her. WHAAAAT?
I guess, instead of thinking I will stand in His way, maybe I can tell people how screwed up I am, but He loves me anyway.
So I went from Him telling me not to be ashamed of Him, to me telling Him I am ashamed of myself, to Him reminding me there are no amount of uglies that can keep Him from loving me…and you.
Until tomorrow: Blessings